Friday, December 7, 2012

To G on her Birthday


To my darling G, on your 3rd birthday.

You were placed on my chest and I wrapped my arms around you. Through the euphoric haze I saw your eyes, blinking in the light as if you’d just woken from a deep sleep. I remember noticing your eyelashes, so dark and long. I remember being amazed by them. As if it hadn’t occurred to me that a baby would have them. 


You were a beautiful baby. I know I have to say that because I’m your mum, but you were. Your dad and I spent many hours in those early days just gazing at you, overwhelmed that we had created such a gorgeous little creature.

We didn’t have a clue what we were doing. You spent the first 24 hours of your life with your nappy on back to front and wrapped up like an over stuffed burrito. I sat up most of the first night, afraid to close my eyes. You smiled in your sleep and I felt a surge of love jolt through me. I’ll never forget that moment, that’s when I really got it. I was a mother.  


You were always a bit of a pickle. You started rolling pretty early and delighted in travelling across the room to explore new territory away from your play mat. As soon as you were mobile you followed me around ‘helping’ and would happily wreck the house if I turned my back for a few minutes.

You ran before you walked and as your little sister grew in my tummy you had me chasing you around the park, up climbing frames and over rope bridges.  Every day you would use up every single bit of energy you had with non-stop-action from the moment you woke till the moment you slept. 

 
People have called you ‘a character’, exuberant, energetic, spirited and wild. You are full of beans, that’s for sure. I wish I’d had a dollar for every well meaning old lady that remarked ‘you’ve got your hands full dear!’

I love the way you talk and the way that you play and the way that you say hello to every person you meet in the street. I love the feeling of your little hand in mine and your arms around my neck. I love the sound of your laughter, especially when you laugh in unison with little C. 


Sometimes you rile against me. You fight with your sister. You disobey. I shout and scold. And you look at me with your big beautiful eyes defiant and I know that I’ve failed you.

You are not a naughty girl. You are curious, you are adventures and your desire to explore the world overrides any inclination to slow down! And whilst it would be nice if you listened to me now and then, I’m so bloody proud of who you are


Don’t ever change, G.

I love you just the way you are.

With so much love,

Mummy xxx

23 comments:

  1. So beautiful Catherine.
    And such beautiful little girls. I didn't realise how alike they are until I saw the photo of G in the purple dress! :)
    xx

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  2. So beautiful Catherine. It has been wonderful watching our babies grow together over the last three years. Lucas and I had loads of fun looking at the photos of Grace growing up, such a gorgeous little girl.
    Happy 3rd birthday Grace xox

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  3. Your G and my G (aka P1) sound like peas in a pod. Happy 3rd Birthday little one. Hope the family really enjoys this special day.

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  4. Beautiful letter.
    But just remember if you have to scold for disobedience, you haven't failed her. On the contrary you you have taught her something valuable. :)
    Happy birthday G! Xxx

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  5. Just beautiful Catherine. And what a gorgeous girl your little G is. Very happy 3rd birthday to her.

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  6. Happy bday to your little girl. I have a 3 yo too and spend a goodly amount of time shouting and being cross. Urgh. I have to let things slide more and enjoy her.

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  7. Beautiful Catherine! Happy Birthday to G! I hope you all have a wonderful day celebrating. From the way you describe G as a baby I can just tell that my Mia is going to be a little firecracker just like yours! And boy, you can tell G & C are sisters from that 3rd photo of G as a toddler!

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  8. Happy birthday gorgeous G! :) Beautiful post xx

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  9. Cutie piec, especially love the newborn photos, and the one of her lying on you. You both look brand new, she as a baby and you as a mum.

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  10. That's really lovely - I remember the first night my little girl came home - I sat up with her the whole night, her asleep on my chest, me petrified of moving.

    We've been described as having a "character" as well.

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  11. Oh my, what a simply beautiful little lady and to match, such a beautiful post. Happy birthday to your cheeky monkey x

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  12. What a beautiful photo of the two of you. What a gorgeous little girl she is, and even as a newborn, so precious.

    Lovely post.

    Happy Birthday G!

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  13. What a gorgeous post, Catherine! The pictures are gorgeous too by the way - especially that one of you and baby G on the couch. I truly could relate that surge of love that you wrote about - the moment where you really 'got it' that you were a mother. I remember that moment too with my first born. Happy Birthday to your beautiful amazing girl. xx

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  14. Gorgeous Catherine! You should post this up for Heart Monday - it's such a heart story. What a beautiful girl she is and what beautiful writing. x

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  15. Oh, love it, Catherine! Happy 3rd birthday, G! Keep mummy on her toes, won't you?! :) x

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  16. Beautiful Catherine, just beautiful! Happy birthday G xxx

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  17. Lovely, heartfelt post Catherine - happy birthday to your gorgeous G!

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  18. Aww Happy Birthday to your gorgeous little G hun xx

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  19. Happy birthday little G. You look soooo pretty and have the best smile. Hope it was a great day :)
    Leanne @ Deep Fried Fruit

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  20. Aaaww you made me well up! I hope G has a wonderful birthday. It goes so quickly doesn't it! x

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  21. Beautiful. Happy birthday to your gorgeous little bean!

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